It has been a while. Last time I wrote an entry kat blog ni was 2016. That was, what? 7 years ago? Lama gila.
The urge to write here is because sejak kebelakangan ni I keep on having the urge to write. Untuk bercerita. Untuk membebel. Most times I have the urge to membebel on twitter, but that would be a case of oversharing. I could write down in a journal for my own viewing, tapi I hate menulis tangan and I have a terrible handwriting. I could make a digital journal instead, yes. Tapi yang sebenarnya is that I need an audience. (Aku punya nak audience tu, sampai aku membebel banyak and expose my thoughts on goodreads reviews. Sebab gian nak menulis and bercerita punya pasal. That has to stop.)
Hence, this blog resurfaces. My thoughts will be out there publicly for people to read. But I'm pretty sure takde siapa akan baca pun. Heck, takde siapa akan terfikir to look for this blog (despite the fact that my friends know the existence of this blog, tapi ni dah 2023. Nobody blogs anymore). Yang kelakarnya adalah, this blog doesn't even come up on the search results when I googled 'thesuraya'. Yang ada, blog orang lain that is not mine, who also writes book reviews.
But by any chance, you, whoever you are, stumbled upon this entry... well, hello there.
When I think about it, perasaan membuak-buak nak menulis ni mungkin sebab 1) I've been reading tonnes of malay novels, and I've always wanted to write one. But I can't even string a proper sentence. (If I can, though, I wish my writing would be as good as Syud's and Nurul Syahida.) Dan 2) sebab lately I don't have anyone to talk to anymore. Sebab tengah tinggal sorang and I dont have housemates anymore. My labmates pulak sangatlah jarang munculkan diri so I was always alone. Kalau tak, I always have stories to tell. So talkative Suraya is no longer, and I need an outlet.
7 years has passed since 2016. Nothing much has changed, yet a lot of things happened that changed my behaviour, thoughts and surrounding. I was 20 back then. Now, I'm 27!!!!!! The exact age I thought my life would be 'something'. Suraya yang umur 20, pernah terfikir tak that you'll be doing PhD? That's what you are now. Tapi kau still single weh. Menyedihkan hahahaha. Life's been pretty good, though, Alhamdulillah.
More on life updates and whatnots later. Although that later can easily mean next year 👽🤡
I mean, keinginan saya yang membuak-buak untuk menulis dan bercerita ni mungkin boleh berakhir harini je. Siapa tau?
